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July 23, 2004
Descent to Silence
Friday I implemented restrictions on my site that amounted to showing only two days of posts and not allowing comments on any of those. This was prepatory to saying goodbye--to seeing if it would be possible for me to let go. And appears that it may well be so. Only time shall tell. But I'm thinking that by Monday whatever traces of desire to blog remain will have been extinguished and I will vanish off the face of blogdom. There's a part of me that wants to wallow in the "unseen, unheard, unlamented" melodrama, and part that doesn't really want to quit, and part that urges me to get away from this arrangement completely--I needed only the appropriate impetus to get me moving. My foolishness earlier in the week provided this and it may be well for me to delete the entire blog before the weekend so it will be unremembered. Who knows?
I wish things were more clear to me--that I were better able to sort out the competing desires and impulses. How can I begin to gauge whether or not I have done anything worthwhile here? Honestly, I don't have a clue. And since the first duty of a Christian is to "first do no harm and bring no harm to His name," it would seem better that if I am unable to determine this, I should just desist.
And yet part of me rails at this, insists that I should continue to blog. Perhaps that part is called "pride." And perhaps I should not so readily lend it my attention.
Posted by Steven Riddle at July 23, 2004 1:16 PM
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Dear Mr. Riddle,
Perhaps it's not your part to know whether you've done anything worthwhile here; perhaps that will be revealed to you only on the last day. I, on the other hand, know that you've done plenty worthwhile here.
Cheers -
bw
P.S. - do your later posts mean you're still blogging? I hope so!
Posted by: Bill White at July 25, 2004 6:22 PM
If you stopped blogging, I'd lament. What you do is unique and needed. Don't stop!
Posted by: David at July 26, 2004 11:55 AM